I found that accidentally=(
I dont know why for some reason I got jealous eventhough its been a long time.I don't care about anything but when she said,she loved him..sigh.I just can't help it.

"Remember the first time we chat was in the group chat, then you added me up and we started chatting everyday. We created so many sweet and happy memories. We are in the same school, our registration class are just next to each other's class. We see each other after my Accounting and your Physics. We studied together, you helped me in Mathematics. Did you remember all of them?

We went out to the Mall for twice, we watched two different movies for twice, we had "dinner" for twice. Did you remember that? We love each other. You said I am your idol. I started to like you. And the feeling is getting serious, and I've been loving you for more than two months already.

Then, all in a sudden, you have changed. You have changed since last week and I did notice it. You seldom online, or everytime we chat, you will offline without allowing me to say anything. I asked you why. You said your Mom knows your exam result, hence you cannot go online that often anymore, so I understand.

Last night, we chat again, a very cold and gloomy chat, not as always. You used to say that you will be revising for the upcoming exam so last night I asked you, "have you revised for the exam?"

Surprisingly, you said no. You said you used your computer but you didn't go online, you just watched DVDs, and visited some other websites, but not MSN. I wonder why. I asked you again and again, finally I got the answer why I feel like I was being avoided...and ignored.

You admitted that you have fallen for me, you admitted that you loved me. But you don't want to be in a relationship. We're totally different. I am Malay and you're not. I know for some people, that doesn't count. So do I. But not you. I am Muslim and you're Buddhist. You have a strong belief and faith in your religion, that you don't want to convert into Muslim. So do I. I trust only my religion. As a matter of fact, that just simply explains why we cannot be together. We're different.

I am heart broken, you started everything and now you end up everything. I'm trying to get over you. I need time to forget you and our sweet memories, though we have never been together. Sorry for everything."

arghh~Im jealous..sigh.

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